fat ass

so i took my senior pics the other day w/ a friend
and i showed all the pics to my mom...
and she was shocked at how fat i was
she kinda scolded me for being fat. ahahahaha.
i didnt know i was that fat either. i mean, i know i put on tons of weight. but yeah.
teehee.
so much for wasting my summer.
fat fat fat.
scaryyy future coming ahead! hah!

college apps. boohoo.
cant wait to get back to msia.
omg, more food. ahahahahaa

How I Function

1) Problem arises
2) Stress
3) MUST whine/whimper/complain
4) Cry (even though i know it wouldn't make the situation better) and Reason
5) Reluctantly do what i have to do while i continue reasoning
6) Give in and appreciate
7) WA LA everything's done
8) proud of self
aha

After the Move-In

1) LAVYNNIAAAAAA

WELCOME TO THE US OF A :DDD


2) i need to learn to use limited space efficiently

3) it's now or never...
...to look up for colleges
...to calculate expenses
...to look for a job
...to save money
...to prepare for my ACT/SAT AGAIN
...to score well to receive scholarships
...to study well
...to put more effort
...to write college apps
...to take senior pics


4) i feel like baking/cooking
mainly.. for others
..so that i wont get as fat

baked these portuguese egg tarts today.
it isnt burnt, mind you.



 5) before i can achieve these......................
i NEED to ORGANIZE my stuff
so that i can get going!!
but,
i can't find any space!! FML........

im such a huge paranoid.
woke up at 5am just for moving.
i literally have dark circles under my eyes. woo.

breakfree

i wanna run away from responsibilities.
and soar freely in the sky
or swim with the dolphins in deep blue sea
without worries nor concern
i want to run on that neverending deserted road
fly mindlessly, swim mindlessly, run mindlessly


RAWR.

dancing in the rain

 
 this was never a wish of mine but it is for others
well, i've done it.
and it's icky (period as in full stop)

scatterbrained: i solely learn from embarrassment.

i still have SOOOOOO much to learn until i can deem myself as an independent soul.
i still have tons to learn before i could graduate into adulthood.
i realize i learn from super embarrassing incidents. from shameful events. i cant even stand myself.
i am so unorganized, irresponsible, and lazy.
grooooooowww uppppp!