summer ♥

fat ass

2011-08-30T18:24:00.000-07:00

so i took my senior pics the other day w/ a friend
and i showed all the pics to my mom...
and she was shocked at how fat i was
she kinda scolded me for being fat. ahahahaha.
i didnt know i was that fat either. i mean, i know i put on tons of weight. but yeah.
teehee.
so much for wasting my summer.
fat fat fat.
scaryyy future coming ahead! hah!

college apps. boohoo.
cant wait to get back to msia.
omg, more food. ahahahahaa

How I Function

2011-08-19T21:30:00.000-07:00

1) Problem arises
2) Stress
3) MUST whine/whimper/complain
4) Cry (even though i know it wouldn't make the situation better) and Reason
5) Reluctantly do what i have to do while i continue reasoning
6) Give in and appreciate
7) WA LA everything's done
8) proud of self
aha

After the Move-In

2011-08-18T20:43:00.000-07:00

1) LAVYNNIAAAAAA

WELCOME TO THE US OF A :DDD

2) i need to learn to use limited space efficiently

3) it's now or never...
...to look up for colleges
...to calculate expenses
...to look for a job
...to save money
...to prepare for my ACT/SAT AGAIN
...to score well to receive scholarships
...to study well
...to put more effort
...to write college apps
...to take senior pics

4) i feel like baking/cooking
mainly.. for others
..so that i wont get as fat

baked these portuguese egg tarts today.
it isnt burnt, mind you.

5) before i can achieve these......................
i NEED to ORGANIZE my stuff
so that i can get going!!
but,
i can't find any space!! FML........

2011-08-14T19:30:00.000-07:00

im such a huge paranoid.
woke up at 5am just for moving.
i literally have dark circles under my eyes. woo.

breakfree

2011-08-11T19:30:00.000-07:00

i wanna run away from responsibilities.
and soar freely in the sky
or swim with the dolphins in deep blue sea
without worries nor concern
i want to run on that neverending deserted road
fly mindlessly, swim mindlessly, run mindlessly

RAWR.

dancing in the rain

2011-08-08T19:37:00.000-07:00

this was never a wish of mine but it is for others
well, i've done it.
and it's icky (period as in full stop)

scatterbrained: i solely learn from embarrassment.

2011-08-07T21:28:00.000-07:00

i still have SOOOOOO much to learn until i can deem myself as an independent soul.
i still have tons to learn before i could graduate into adulthood.
i realize i learn from super embarrassing incidents. from shameful events. i cant even stand myself.
i am so unorganized, irresponsible, and lazy.
grooooooowww uppppp!

2011-08-05T21:23:00.000-07:00

cant sleep cause of my phone bill skyrocketed. fml T_T

it' been a while...

2011-07-26T20:48:00.000-07:00

Summer's been pretty lax for me.
Things that i wanted/planned have not been exactly fulfilled due to the unmotivated me.
anyway, i went to the library today to look for books. looking at/reading books is really calming and relaxing. ahh love it. books are meant to be tangible. they should be the old school paper books and not the nooks or kindles or ebooks. boo those.
paper back books ftw!
so i picked up this cookbook. it is like my ideal book T_T
i can picture myself in the future, having my own apt or penthouse(ahem xD) and this book will be in my living room. i'll just choose a recipe and hop down to the grocery store to buy the ingredients just for that and cook an appetizing meal!
oh me and my ideal world.
i've been thinking of drinking frap everyday. smacks self.

two months of summer's gone. only one left.
so quick!
and the realities of going to college; how to apply for colleges, scholarships, loans, grants; what do i really want to do; where i want to go; how am i gonna pay my tuition- oh the nightmares! -are getting closer!!
the many paths that lay before a person but only one that determines the future- a risk. a step to soar or fall.
i wonder how college students survive.
another amazing thing of life.
research. research. research.

oh wishlist for a special occasion when i get older: a cookbook! TEEHEE

2011-06-08T05:37:00.000-07:00

maan... my left eye is swollen and idk why.
maybe i punched myself in my sleep.
or i studied just a tad too hard (i doubt so. aha.)
it's so annoying.
now i know how small-eyed people feel.
and i've been getting new bites on my body every morning. wtf. bed bugs? i checked. nada. and i researched.. it doesnt look like the bed bug bite shown but the itch is longer than a mosquito bite and it kinda swells -_-
or is it just time to change my bed sheet? fml.

2011-06-06T18:23:00.001-07:00

studying for China history.
and omfg why does the stupid person w/ power sack so many ppl in a short amount of time. and the chinese names arent doing any good either.>:(
kill me.
</3

2011-06-01T18:10:00.001-07:00

so screwed for finals.
yay me!

2011-05-31T18:16:00.000-07:00

wow.
hormonal imbalance is so scary.
so much for giving the mean impression to my cousin's gf.
great, phoebe, great.
now, i've got tons of ugly pimples on my face T_T
arghhh.
SAT this sat. fml. i kinda regret registering. a waste of money.
weather's warmer now.
almost forgotten the feeling of warm weather. pretty unpleasant. lol
oh well.
such a cranky bitch. hmmph.
i want to eat McD.
:(
i miss home. mom and dad. boo.
i think somehow i might be going home. RAWR.

2011-05-30T06:46:00.000-07:00

after a year of not seeing fireworks with my two eyes, i finally witnessed a freaking long one.
the best part was the ones that didnt work which looked like a super mini a-bomb.
:D

2011-05-29T14:18:00.000-07:00

so sick and tired of people asking "how is it living alone? why live alone? are you okay that you're living alone?"
STOP.
i like being alone. MOTT!
and i chose to live alone.
dont even pity me that i have to live alone.
YES i do feel lonely sometimes and want to talk to someone rather than waiting till it's appropriate to talk to someone i can talk to.
and i have friends and i dont have friends. so
stop.
secondly,
the "why dont you wanna study architecture anymore?" question is DONE with. why this why that? BECAUSE.
i'm done w/ architecture so QUIT ASKING. dont even try to reason w/ me cause wtv you say wont even go into my ear kay let alone my brain.

i think im a lil annoyed w/ humans now and the fact that i have less time to study for my finals. and im tired. so stop.
being around ppl is so exhausting.
stop.
stop
stop
stop
stop.
freaking stop.

thanks for your concerns. but i dont need them now.

man, i sound like someone that has issues.
or maybe i do have.
gasp. i dont want to be someone who does.
freaky!

NEWS!

2011-05-25T20:11:00.000-07:00

mom received an email from our school that a girl reported a sexual assault a couple weeks ago to the police dpt. the police then reported the case to our school.
assault happened at a school's stairwell. yup. our school has quite a couple of completely enclosed stairwells. :)
quite a number of people were talking about it in school today. so the nosy me got quite a bit of info. heh.
poor girl. i heard she was a foreign exchange student. bummer. and apparently people claimed it as a "rape". dk which is which and what is what. anyways, more info about the dude. ppl said that 8 sexual assault cases from the same guy have been reported. freaky psycho!!
school has tonnes of sec. cameras but i realized none at stairwells! hahaa. bimbooo.
feel sorry for the girl. her parents must be super furious w/ americans now. or the schools in america. exchange student!! whyyyyyy.

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kay, so after blogging this post. i went to read the newspaper and there's an article about this. great. now our awesome school has a bad name. aha.
http://host.madison.com/wsj/news/local/crime_and_courts/article_f8b152f0-8726-11e0-8e0c-001cc4c002e0.html

2011-05-22T18:15:00.000-07:00

ahahha.
i finally hear my mom say that she misses me. xD
so funny.
so much for not going back this summer. bleh.

2011-05-19T19:40:00.001-07:00

okay..
is it just me? or is it you too?
someone whom you almost never talk to suddenly comes chatting w/ you.
awkward? suspicious? or is it a good start?
hmm.

2011-05-18T20:02:00.000-07:00

fine arts week. i feel pretty free.
im so gonna regret what i just said -.-
THREE MORE WEEKS. <3!!
SAT and finals!
screw finals!
college? what college?
rawr.

p/s. matrices are for losers full stop.

2011-05-16T05:38:00.000-07:00

talk about healthiness..
i ate instant noodles three days this week
found a strand of white hair. im sure there are more somewhere. it's in the genes.
and i discovered a new brand of bread which i absolutely love!
i went shopping and went crazy.
i ate almost too much this weekend.
i watched the king's speech which i dont fancy at all.
i spoke to my dad whom i havent been talking to for quite some time. heh.
great week.
thanks to His great love, i could enjoy these things.
now, one of my major history test awaits me.
au revoir!

2011-05-13T21:58:00.000-07:00

made it into next yr's dance team! :D ecstatic!
had a fun night too!
dinner and the king's speech. dont really get why it was a good movie. but whatevs. the company was awesome. :)

2011-05-11T20:33:00.000-07:00

so ready to fail my next china quiz.
nuke nuke nuke

2011-05-09T20:16:00.000-07:00

me
friend

"im sick."

":("
"get well soon!"

"im sick"

"i coming over to your house tmrw"

"really?"

"im gonna make guai ling gou"

"im coming after work"

"can buy you dinner too! what do you want? mexican? sub? pizza?"

"yay!"

tell me im super blessed.
how to not be grateful?
there's still love in the world. :)

also, i need to be a better friend.
THANK YOU FRIEND. she even put sugar in my guai ling gou for moi. :D

2011-05-05T20:38:00.000-07:00

fml for laziness.
let's see what happens tomorrow.
why the fuck am i so fucking unmotivated.
taking my life for granted.
how cool.
maybe that's one reason why i think i should be....
:)

as if saying/writing it multiple times would do the trick
where's the action?
i seriously lack that.
crush those lazy bones! ARGH.

funny thought #1

2011-05-05T20:19:00.000-07:00

read Sher's recent fb status
and it made me come up with this thought...
what if the baby's parents slept like logs and he/she cries/whines/wtv in the middle of the night.
HAHAHAH
poor baby would be left alone in his misery.
too bad. xD

2011-05-05T18:04:00.000-07:00

gawd, self control.................................................................
fail
~~MACS~~MAX

Giving Up Too Easily

2011-05-04T19:42:00.001-07:00

where's the hope
determinination
and perseverance?

you can do it! :)

2011-05-03T20:28:00.000-07:00

i think i am gonna have athritis someday.
haha

Mifflin Block Party

2011-05-02T17:27:00.000-07:00

Other than our Wisconsin Cheese and Ginseng
Madisonians can be proud of the Mifflin Block Party.
occurs every year around the end of april and beginning of may.
it's like this huge drinking party in Madison UW campus area.
tons of people come out and drink from day till night.
you have to pay to go inside someone's house for a drink.
it's like alcohol hopping. if you know what i mean.
drunkards all around the campus.
one even stabbed another guy's ass. and the stabbed didnt know what was going cause he was that drunk.
shame or fame?
i've never witness the mifflin block party..
but it looks like

this.

traumatizing. especially when there are drunkards.

2011-05-01T18:20:00.001-07:00

having been working out for a long time.
but i raked today! :D
volunteered for some church thinggy.
so happy i did something. lol
i can feel my arms hurting now.
bought so much groceries to stock up for the next few months.
phoebe chong will never be starving.
on the other hand, i am determined to lose a few KGs by the time my cousin comes back from his trip.
let's see if i can make it ;)
i'll be soo darn happy.
i shouldnt be so ecstatic now. aha.
<3

2011-04-30T08:28:00.000-07:00

i am moody/emotional.
and i dont know why.
i wish i knew why.

2011-04-24T15:22:00.000-07:00

i am so indecisive.
i want to stab myself.
i am so indecisive.
i think other people wants to stab me too.

gosh. when am i gonna be decisiveeeeeeeeeeeeee.

All Chains break loose

2011-04-22T14:23:00.000-07:00

i might have a new housemate.
the wonder or the horror.
i dont want to suffer like Jaryl.
PLEASE T_T

the horror:
one escape route-
back to melayu land!

Chi-town

2011-04-19T13:38:00.000-07:00

it's almost 4AM Malaysian time and my mom's still online -_____- watching drama.
such a junkie.

anyways,
my awesome cousin brought me to chicago on sunday. :D
he's going back to chicago in about two weeks.
his girlfriend's coming and he's gonna tour for a month with her!
i drove for the 1st third of the journey.
cant seem to drive straight. -_- it's either to the left or to the right. RAWR.
didnt do much there though.

our first stop was

CHINATOWN :D
felt like home.
...kinda.

tonnes of Wisconsin ginseng there
wanted to take pictures of them
but kiasu asian didnt allow. :(
"no pictures! no pictures!"
couldnt even feel proud for WI.

had dim sum for brunch.
the restaurants known for good dim sum had a long line so we went to another restaurant...

then we headed over to the Willis Tower :)
freaking parking fees in huge cities in US are insane.
$5 per hour. or $14 for 3hrs. we managed to find a $12 for 24 hour.

Lego Willis

cousin said before the Willis Tower had antennas, KLCC was slightly taller than Willis
he said they loved to bitch about how KLCC was only a teeny weeny bit taller in the introductory video.

yes, i came all the way to chicago just to stand on that piece of glass.

yes, he blames me for taking horrible pictures.
look at him with his oh-so-fine cam and lenses
pssht

digged some nose, then left.

so much for excretory waste. haha.
you see the bird shit?

walked around Michigan Ave,
then looked for the "popular" deep dish pizza place..
we walked 11 blocks south, three blocks east, then six blocks back west, and we couldnt find that freaking place. so we walked 11 blocks north again and east, west, here and there.
settled at Giordano's Pizza.
it was so cheesy. i was grossed out by it. lol

super cheesy pasta.

and the super cheesy deep dish pizza.
it was so cheesy, i couldnt find any sausages.
okay im exaggerating but still.

that's all i did in Chicago. lol.
i like that place.
love the buildings.
might go there for college. HMM.
but it's the Windy City T_T
talked to my mom about it and she gave the green light to chicago. but when i asked her about NY she said it wouldnt be suitable for me. rawr.
too much pressure and rush.
hmm...

they say we look alike. do we?

"thank you for bringing me to chicago. i had fun."
"you did?"
*FACEPALM 10000000000000000000000000000x*
*IGNOREEEEE*

oh before i forget, credits to him for most of the photos here. *the nice ones la duhhh*
yeah i stole.
talking about stealing.
he was like "why do you like to keep talking about stealing?"
LOL.
"those who talk about stealing dont steal; those who dont, steals."
muaahhaha now, let's talk about stealing. should we?

of dreams, cold weather in the name of spring break

2011-04-15T20:45:00.000-07:00

yes, it's not supposed to make any sense.
anyways,
:D
THE LONG AWAITED SPRING BREAK HAS ARRIVED!

psyched much?!
kinda.
at least i accomplished a little something today. like ~~spring~~ some cleaning at home.
haha.
woahh. it's only ten PM and my eyes are droopy.
hmmm.

got a notice from the management the other day
it basically tells us to keep the entrance doors closed b/c some homeless dude had been sleeping at the lower floor stairwells.

creepola.
imagine when you come home at night and you walk down the stairs and you see this dude laying down there!

PLUS my cousin told me he forgot to lock the house door that night.. and he saw the door was propped open a little. luckily i lock my bedroom door.

creepola #2!
but somehow, it might just be my cousin who did not close the door properly the night before.
when i tell my mom this. she's probably gonna freak. kinda. lol
chi-town this sunday! :) what should i do there? HMM.

i sooo want to go shopping. get a whole new closet. i wanna look/be trendy too! but i know im soo gonna feel super guilty after that. PLUS. i have a tendency of not wearing the clothes i buy. SIGHSOLA. :(
i made a vow. i can only buy clothes if i lose weight.
but aint losing any. FAIL.
speaking of that...some people just dont get why people care so much about their weight, size and looks.
you live on Earth thus it MATTERS OKAY.
at least it does to me, myself, and i.
if it doesnt for you. then good for you and be happy that you dont care about it :)
dont you dare argue w/ me. PERIOD.

i want to go to Taiwan.
i dont know when's the next time i could go overseas again.

and i have college dilemmas and a car dilemma too.
i have a to-do list for spring break!
and a week aint enough for 'em!
oh well. pray/hope things go well. :)
if it doesnt, make 'em right!
<3

im having dreams lately.
i usually dont.
and i know i shouldnt have them
because i WASH MY FEET EVERY NIGHT. okay, sometimes. depends when i shower at night and whether my feet touches the carpet between the time i take my night shower and the time i go to sleep.
and if they do, MUST WASH.
LOL
p.s. i wear room slippers at home.
call me superstitious. but hey, i've been doing this since i was a lil girl.
weird dreams. and some are scary too. : /

on a random note. you know the everything happens because of yourself thing? you BLAME yourself. DONT blame others. cause you see. it's always YOUR fault. so yeap. i want to blame my parents for that superstitious. but after all, it all goes back to ME. :)

so yeah, people BLAME YOURSELF. ;)
though i find comfort in blaming others :D
HEH.
dont we?

Doped

2011-04-10T19:11:00.000-07:00

okay, so for the few of you who know phoebe well..
Smells are a huge part of her life.
bad smell = intolerable.
thus she tries to make herself smell pleasant cause she does not want people to feel unpleasant.
anyways,
a freshman in my spanish class asked me to help him in his algebra.
teacher wasnt in school so we were watching Nemo in spanish and we could do anything we wanted.
back to the story...
i said yes.
and T_T
my dear NOSE.
fella smelled like whatithinkitwas weed. but the fella didnt look like he was high or something. eyes were perfectly fine.. so maybe it was some other unbearable stuff he ate/suffocated
i was like all right. it's okay. you can do this. just teach him and you're done.
so he asked me stuff and i tried to explain...
and after we were done..
my NOSE.
infiltrated with the scent of weed.
i kinda got giddy instead of high. -_-
i told myself, nevermind, it would go away
i took out my berry scented lotion and applied it on my hands in the hopes of removing the smell.
BUT
it FAILED to do so.
i still had two more periods before school ended...
bell rang.
i went to my 7th hour.
i can still smell the smell.
:(
applied lotion again.
it's STILL there! T_T
i felt suffocated and ggiddy. PLUS i had a quiz in 7th and a test in 8th!
praying/hoping i could do my test -_-
i can even smell it when im talking about it.
boohoo.
so doped.

had curry twice yesterday. lol
yumms.
so much coconut milk.
then today, i bought coconut!
omg, havent had that for a super long time!
i almost forgot how it tasted like!
cold and refreshing.

MMMMM

i wish i had more of that. hmm.
one more week till spring break!
cant wait! :D

80 degrees out today! <3

feel like buying clothes
but is it worth it?
so many things to do.
but i just aint doing 'em.

having a crush on some youtube dude. HAHAHA
wish i could be that funny.

early sleep

2011-03-30T20:25:00.000-07:00

to soak myself in my misery.

thanks for laziness and mudheads.

watch :D

2011-03-28T20:34:00.001-07:00

Compete with Yourself.

2011-03-27T06:27:00.000-07:00

so i had my first driving class with my coach yesterday.
and.
it.
was.
horrible
period.

i remembered that most of the time i was tense -_-
and i could've crash into some stuff a couple of times.
lol
bad driver.
the other girl who was in the car with me was a pretty good driver..
it wasnt until late at night that my mom said "why do you keep comparing yourself with others?"
and that's when i realized, i've been comparing myself with the others.. that's why i feel so beat up/hopeless/discouraged whenever someone does something better than me. and that stupid hopelessness makes me wanna give up. and im the source of that thought of giving up.
yeap. nowadays, the thought of giving up has invaded most of my brain.

oh well. driving to church later! hahaha.
i think my phone's battery is gonna die. T_T
i charged it ytd and it was full... but this morning when i woke up it was off! fml.
thankfully it's not a school day and i was up at that time i should be.

my new art piece. what say you?

i almost flew away

2011-03-24T20:05:00.000-07:00

winter's back.
it snowed lightly ytd. and the weather's super chilly. the wind is cold. :(
the wind was so strong on monday.. it almost blew me away. it was weird.
the path was icy, and as soon as i got out from school, a super strong wind blew.. i was kinda sliding sideways -_-

i have two books to read for two classes now.
and i have to read one for my china class everyday. 30 something pages everyday and a quiz the very next day. if i dont read = die. T_T
teacher's words, "one wrong. it's not an "A". *HEEH." yeah he does this "HEEEH" thing in a high pitch voice every time.

and :) im gonna learn how to drive this saturday!! :D
excited yet afraid.
afraid of what you say..?
my coach -__-
he's kinda scary but cool at the same time.. : /

what makes me fat :)

2011-03-20T20:06:00.000-07:00

COLDSTONE :D
i finally got to go there.

say "MMMMMMMMMMM" :D

oh, and dont forget the burger too! ahahha

but this was a bad burger :(

sad phoebe

and what perigee MOON? i see no mooonn. :(

it was all the way in LONDON.

pssht.

some random convo

2011-03-19T12:35:00.000-07:00

so my mom was just checking up on me before she went to bed..

MOM says
what r u doing?
P says
work
why arent you sleeping?
i feel like eating burger -_-
hahha
MOM says
do not make me feel hungry
i want to sleep already
talk to u later
P says
HAHAH
bye
MOM says
bye

okay. you may not think it's funny. but i think it is. : /
gotta write a story for english. it's a two people thing so i have a partner and im concluding the story. anyways, we chose 15 random words from the dictionary and then used the words to make a poem then write the story based on the poem...
i chose a random word "Nehru" and that's India's first prime minister.. so we were thinking how should we write the story about him and bla bla bla and came up with the idea that he's in an affair w/ someone else.. and i was telling my partner that we should research about him before we crap about him.. she didnt really care about that but me being asian..and being respective and all thought i really should.. so i wikipedia-ed and AHAHAHAH true enough... he MIGHT have been having an affair with some british lady. funnyyy.
what's this huge moon today thing about? maybe i should go seeeee. :D

2011-03-15T20:43:00.000-07:00

woo. taking my driver's permit test tmrw.
best of luck to moi. lols

2011-03-13T20:39:00.000-07:00

i've been selected to join a club in school which would look so awesome on my college application but I DONT HAVE THAT DAMN 60HOURS OF COMMUNITY SERVICE. whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
T-T
i like doing community service. but i dont have enough. wtf ftw wtf.
i hope it's not too late to get into it next yr.
VBS. how many hours is that? i cant rmb. but i know its close to 20!

2011-03-13T11:58:00.001-07:00

okay. the verdict: i suck at drawing faces. ahahhaahha

human

2011-03-12T21:16:00.000-08:00

i wanted to try whether i could actually sketch a copy of someone's face.
it was my first time drawing real human... it turned out to be horrible. i could find out what's wrong though, but it's so wrong. lol.
then i made a second attempt to sketch my face while i was video calling my mom. hahah

just a rough sketch
ahahhaha does it look like me? xD
feedback please.

DST. time to sleep!!

weaker

2011-03-10T18:19:00.000-08:00

what i strongly believe that were all BS once, is what i am now.
so i guess im a BS now.
time to change.
and i should better make every bit of that second chance worth it.
if i do rmb the bright side.

8:27!!

2011-03-09T07:25:00.000-08:00

i opened my eyes. and with the disturbing vision.. the face of my digital clock shows "8:27"
i went up to it to get a closer look. "8:27?!!!!"
first thought. f. second thought. this cant be right. *checks phone* OMGGGG
this is like my first time ever that i overslept on a schoolday.
wtf.
fml.
yes, i panicked. i didnt know whether i should still go to school or stay at home or call in sick and dont go to school or call in sick and still go to school.
i chose the last obviously.
and me being tardy is a HUGE deal. call me a nerd but whatevs.
maan. i still cant believe it.
dk whether i slept like a dead person that i missed my alarm or my alarm did not ring.
i only rmb i woke up once and that was cause i was dreaming and i squinted at the clock and it was 3 something AM.
:(
FAIL

Unknown #1

2011-03-06T07:44:00.000-08:00

ohmegosh. i've never seen this ever in my life.
dont you think this is uh-may-zeeng?
POTALA PALACE in TIBET.
the king built it for his chinese princess bride. :O
old people are cool!

and this one..the Arch of Reunification in N.Korea.
so angelic/saint-like.

happy trip to the BOOKSTORE :)

2011-03-05T19:22:00.000-08:00

finally bought a book that has to do with architecture! :)
im a happy girl. for now.
also, my trip to the bookstore made me realize that an architecture major would cost my parents/me a freaking A-bomb.
gahhh.

Combustion :O

2011-03-03T17:03:00.000-08:00

something to remind myself why i like going to school
a NORMAL school.

p.s. Karlyn, it's this teacher, if you know/rmb what im talking about :P

Fail

2011-02-26T16:04:00.000-08:00

my cake failed.
seems like i fail in everything i do.
i am partially depressed right now.
pfft.
so much for a happy ending. >:(

Ready?

2011-02-26T09:15:00.000-08:00

Obviously not.
I did the full practice SAT test yesterday and oh well, as expected, the result wasnt even close to okay.
of course im kinda disappointed but i feel bad for my mom cause i know she's feeling upset about that score even she doesnt show it. wasting all that money on me and in return it was that rotten score.
another reason to add to my "i-dont-understand-why-parents-want-children" list

lalalalala

maaan, my history teacher is kinda gross.
he digs his nose publicly!: /

when he does it i dont know if i should look at him or look away -_-
he lectures and then digs and proceed to touch other stuff. bleh.
and he grades 92-100 = A
plus, he was saying he was being pretty good about it already cause he would've have made 98-100 = A
pressure much? pfft.

ever since i took art class in school, i feel kinda relaxed. we do so many interesting things! like sculpting soap. so far, my aint going that well. i already broke my first soap bar. lol

Indian food

2011-02-19T19:52:00.000-08:00

so i finally went to an Indian Restaurant today.
wanted to eat at Longhorn Steakhouse but it was pretty occupied so we decided to go to Maharaja.
we ordered Garlic Nan, Bryani, and Lamb Masala. it came with pappadum too. I would say i enjoyed the naan and pappadumthe most. oh and the meat :D but the rice.. was.. okaayy. it tasted weird to me. probably not used to the taste or something. i miss mamak food. :( MAMAK FOOD FTW!
remember i said something about a protest in madison? now, there's a counter protest. farneee.

random #1

2011-02-17T11:42:00.000-08:00

Your car is Japanese. Your Vodka is Russian. Your pizza is Italian. Your kebab is Turkish. Your democracy is Greek. Your coffee is Brazilian. Your movies are American. Your Beers are German. Your shirt is Indian. Your oil is Saudi Arabian. Your electronics are Chinese. Your numbers -Arabic, your letters -Latin. And you complain that your neighbor is an immigrant?!

saw this on fb. thought it was funny :)

school-less

2011-02-16T19:46:00.001-08:00

no school for two days straight. gaaahhh. i actually miss school.
bored cause im lazy to do things im supposed to do.
baaahhh

Love?

2011-02-13T20:38:00.000-08:00

so it's Valentine's Day tomorrow.
no biggie for someone like moi.

doesn't hurt to wish people Happy Valentine's Day :D
love love love. :)

oh,
so today's service was about love. 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 it is!
Blackhawk Church's worship team created a song with those verses.
i thought i should share http://www.blackhawkmedia.org/temp/wac/love_never_fails.mp3
<3

Untitled.

2011-02-10T16:02:00.000-08:00

hellooo :)
it's pretty cold these few days. it went way below 0C. cold = bad sleep b/c cold. :(
so valentine's day coming up pretty soon and it's kinda a big deal over here.. there's singing valentine's tomorrow and an aud in school = shorten schedule. singing valentine's how the chorus group fund raise for their group. it's like groups audition to get into singing valentine's and teachers choose a certain number of groups and they go around singing their own love songs for people during classes. it's $5 for a song. people buy it for their friends, loved ones or even themselves. i must say the groups that are chosen are pretty good singers. :)
my dance team decided to fund raise too cause our team is like.... super poor.
so a friend came up with this idea that we sell hershey kisses. sold quite a number of them today. gonna do that tmrw. and there's the aud tomorrow = dancing in front of the entire school. im kinda nervous. oh well. i hope everyone would be impress with our performances. we even made our own dance shirts. :D

the shirt :D

mom made pineapple tarts before she left. :D

ate frog "tin kai" for CNY :D wahahaha

cny with the m'sians.
everyone keeps saying my mom's super young...

so im in an art class now and everytime we draw/make something, we have to present it infront of the whole class. and i always feel my art is pretty common and in someways uncool... but somehow, the whole class thinks it's cool.. so idk if it's just some meaningless praise or it's for real.

but art class is fun :) people just have so many abstract ideas! and sometimes..i just dont get a painting at all. teacher makes us comment on every painting.. and i just dont know what to say.. like i dont really know about art, so what am i supposed to say?

oh well. before i get lost in my math and chem i gotta review 'em!

Superbowl XLV

2011-02-06T20:29:00.000-08:00

oh yeah! Wisconsin's Greenbay Packers won the superbowl! wahahaha.
the commentator actually said it was the smallest city in the country. :O i didnt know that.

no handsome players. just good looking muscles. xD look at his!! bigger than Popeye's!

wasn't really into it at first. but it got interesting and exciting. i actually watched the whole game. Black EYed Peas performed. sucked though. xD
but mann. the mayor did not declare a holiday! :(
mom was supposed to leave today but flight cancel -_- way to go.
we actually sent her to the airport, went to church and then she called, so we went to pick her up again.
i teared of course. didnt get any better when i was in church either. everyone was in the superbowl spirit :O
so dumb. teared but mom didnt leave. ahahahah.
on the way to the airport the second time, talked to my cousin in the car. some sensitive issues. oh well. made us closer but both of us feel the pain.
made a 3D newspaper tree!!

Blizzard 101

2011-02-01T18:00:00.000-08:00

tak i pushed the school door. i was instantly slapped by the harsh, swift, blizzard winds coming from my right. "ouch" i thought to myself. it was my first time feeling this in the winter. it was different. "fuck" a feminine voice exclaimed. i turned my head around. "it's so windy." "yeah," she replied. we parted to our own ways. i walked cautiously down the icy, snow-covered steps. another gush of wind blew from my north. it wasnt just any wind. it was wind with collected ice crystals with a handful of snow from the ground. "oh my gosh, this hurts" i crossed my fingers, hoping i would make it home safely.
the wind was super strong! i think it could make some super skinny person fly.. lol

oh and it's a SNOW DAY TOMORROW. hehheeh.
poor Jaryl. no snow day.
dude. i hope your school declares a snow day tmrw ;)
hahaha

so i'm currently learning about logarithms in math..
Teacher: when do we use logs in life?
pauseeeee
Classmate: carpentry.
pause
teacher laughs.
a few of us laugh.
OHHHHHHHHH everyone laughs.
it wasnt an intentional joke.
lololol

Happy Birthday to Me, the 17th time :O

2011-01-28T22:41:00.000-08:00

"you are seventeen?"
"yeah, i don't look like one right?"
"no, you're getting there *wink*"

"i still can't believe you're seventeen. (didn't believe i was 16 either -_-)"
"yeah i can't believe im seventeen too... why can't you believe im 17 though?"
"your size and voice"
... something i cant change

"you are seventeen?"
"still like a kid"
: /

"ahahahhaah you are seventeen! so old!"
"yeah i know..."
"i can't believe you're older than me"
i can't believe it either.

oh well, yes, i am seventeen. i feel like i've been stuck being a sixteen yr old for quite some time. i dont even feel 17. how is a 17 yr old supposed to act? what do they do? how much more mature should i grow? am i acting like my age?

oh my gosh. comp lagged. and i typed like a super long paragraph and it's now goneeee T_T
anyway, went out for dinner today. :) went to applebee's. friends looked kinda stunned when i said i was going there for dinner... -_- i guess it's like an ordinary dine out place which i dont think there's anything wrong with that. it's like chili's. i got a super huge free sundae and a balloon and a singing crew. wahahha. lol
facebook is like a super self esteem booster. heh. reminding people to wish their friend happy birthday. i must say it felt pretty good. :) thank you people! <3
cousin bought me an ice-cream cake from cold stone. as if i havent had enough food. such a glutton. ordered quite a lot for dinner. boxed up the remainders. oh well. starve for the next few days. yeah right. as if that's gonna happen. haha
got a card from the dance team :D it was a cute card! and then lei kheng gave me a mini britney spears perfume which is totally perfect for traveling! yesh, i like perfume it gotta smell good and shouldnt be too strong. rawr.
it's like my first time forgetting that it's my bday during most of my time today. usually i am perfectly aware that it's my bday. while i was getting ready and walking to school.. i forgot it was my bday. and now i know why some people think that birthdays are not a big deal. cause it isnt. it's just another day indicating another aging stage. boo. haha
more responsibilities and gotta be smarter. bleh.
i am dumb so deal with it okay. hmmphf.
oh oh i got like tons of Bs for my last finals. i am so bad that my math teacher isnt convinced that i can do well in pre-calc next year. gahhh. feel like a failure? yes i do. now i feel pretty useless. i cant draw well, i cant do math well, i cant write well. what's left for me to do? like what should i do in the future. i am really lost. i just wish people could just tell straight to my face " your drawing sucks. forget about it" or " oh you are good in this" like duuuude tell the truth. ughh. i seriously dont know what to dooo!!!!!! gahh.

anyway, i appreciate today. :D

heh. the super huge sundae. xD

ze balloon. :D

okay, sorry. i just felt like camwhoring kayyy

kay, last one. peace out!

Hamster?

2011-01-27T15:33:00.000-08:00

im wondering if i should have a li'l pet. like a hamster.
since im practically gonna be alone next yr. a pet would accompany me. hehehe. but there would be a problem. the smell... hmm
hamsters are so cuteee though!! or maybe i should kidnap unwanted squirrels! heh

cute li'l monster!

man, i am so uncreative. -_-
we had to draw a "dwelling" in art class today and i havent even started T-T
mom's like you're gonna be 17 but people dont even know you're 17. basically saying that i dont look 17. *sobsob.
got to skip english class today. hehe. now i can choose classes for my senior year! omg. senior. raw.
:D
oh btw, avocado spread is the yums ;)

New Semester

2011-01-26T19:58:00.000-08:00

so it's a new sem and i have three new classes.
i enrolled a creative writing class... and we all know i hate writing. bleh. it's gonna be tough for a brain like mine but oh well, i guess this class would improve my writing skills and make me practice more.
i have an art class now! :D im guessing it's gonna be fun. it's interesting though. at least i could relax in that class. also, i have china for history. muahahhaa. ma turf. so many asians in the class. lol the teacher is funny but at the same time, not funny too.
im thinking i should take chinese summer classes. yes, going with the flow. conforming to peer pressure T_T i give up trying to deny that china will float to the surface. U.S is definitely sinking way below China thus, i should go learn chinese. bleh. oh just realized, that would really please my dad. maybe i'll get more money from him that way too. xD AS IF. *dreams... *
watched vid in art class today. inspired me to do some painting, which i did. but it was. ordinary. boo.

oh oh! my hair freezes when i walk to school b/c it's wet. ahahahah. so interesting. if i bend it will it break? :O

Haircut

2011-01-22T18:59:00.000-08:00

so, i'm done with finals :D

obsessed with movies.

and.

i dont wanna go to school. :(

such a waste of money being here huh.

haha

went shopping today. erm.. bought a decent amount of clothings >.<

saw a pretty nice dress but the ones that are hanging around in that store have a few defects. :( but i still bought a dress. HEEE

oh and i had a haircut. i look like a guy again!

what say you? :)