dancing in the rain

 
 this was never a wish of mine but it is for others
well, i've done it.
and it's icky (period as in full stop)

scatterbrained: i solely learn from embarrassment.

i still have SOOOOOO much to learn until i can deem myself as an independent soul.
i still have tons to learn before i could graduate into adulthood.
i realize i learn from super embarrassing incidents. from shameful events. i cant even stand myself.
i am so unorganized, irresponsible, and lazy.
grooooooowww uppppp!

cant sleep cause of my phone bill skyrocketed. fml T_T

it' been a while...

Summer's been pretty lax for me.
Things that i wanted/planned have not been exactly fulfilled due to the unmotivated me.
anyway, i went to the library today to look for books. looking at/reading books is really calming and relaxing. ahh love it. books are meant to be tangible. they should be the old school paper books and not the nooks or kindles or ebooks. boo those.
paper back books ftw!
so i picked up this cookbook. it is like my ideal book T_T
i can picture myself in the future, having my own apt or penthouse(ahem xD) and this book will be in my living room. i'll just choose a recipe and hop down to the grocery store to buy the ingredients just for that and cook an appetizing meal!
oh me and my ideal world.
i've been thinking of drinking frap everyday. smacks self.

two months of summer's gone. only one left.
so quick!
and the realities of going to college; how to apply for colleges, scholarships, loans, grants; what do i really want to do; where i want to go; how am i gonna pay my tuition- oh the nightmares! -are getting closer!!
the many paths that lay before a person but only one that determines the future- a risk. a step to soar or fall.
i wonder how college students survive.
another amazing thing of life.
research. research. research.

oh wishlist for a special occasion when i get older: a cookbook! TEEHEE

maan... my left eye is swollen and idk why.
maybe i punched myself in my sleep.
or i studied just a tad too hard (i doubt so. aha.)
it's so annoying.
now i know how small-eyed people feel.
and i've been getting new bites on my body every morning. wtf. bed bugs? i checked. nada. and i researched.. it doesnt look like the bed bug bite shown but the itch is longer than a mosquito bite and it kinda swells -_-
or is it just time to change my bed sheet? fml.

studying for China history.
and omfg why does the stupid person w/ power sack so many ppl in a short amount of time. and the chinese names arent doing any good either.>:(
kill me.
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so screwed for finals.
yay me!