summer ♥: Happy Birthday to Me, the 17th time :O

"you are seventeen?"
"yeah, i don't look like one right?"
"no, you're getting there *wink*"

"i still can't believe you're seventeen. (didn't believe i was 16 either -_-)"
"yeah i can't believe im seventeen too... why can't you believe im 17 though?"
"your size and voice"
... something i cant change

"you are seventeen?"
"still like a kid"
: /

"ahahahhaah you are seventeen! so old!"
"yeah i know..."
"i can't believe you're older than me"
i can't believe it either.

oh well, yes, i am seventeen. i feel like i've been stuck being a sixteen yr old for quite some time. i dont even feel 17. how is a 17 yr old supposed to act? what do they do? how much more mature should i grow? am i acting like my age?

oh my gosh. comp lagged. and i typed like a super long paragraph and it's now goneeee T_T
anyway, went out for dinner today. :) went to applebee's. friends looked kinda stunned when i said i was going there for dinner... -_- i guess it's like an ordinary dine out place which i dont think there's anything wrong with that. it's like chili's. i got a super huge free sundae and a balloon and a singing crew. wahahha. lol
facebook is like a super self esteem booster. heh. reminding people to wish their friend happy birthday. i must say it felt pretty good. :) thank you people! <3
cousin bought me an ice-cream cake from cold stone. as if i havent had enough food. such a glutton. ordered quite a lot for dinner. boxed up the remainders. oh well. starve for the next few days. yeah right. as if that's gonna happen. haha
got a card from the dance team :D it was a cute card! and then lei kheng gave me a mini britney spears perfume which is totally perfect for traveling! yesh, i like perfume it gotta smell good and shouldnt be too strong. rawr.
it's like my first time forgetting that it's my bday during most of my time today. usually i am perfectly aware that it's my bday. while i was getting ready and walking to school.. i forgot it was my bday. and now i know why some people think that birthdays are not a big deal. cause it isnt. it's just another day indicating another aging stage. boo. haha
more responsibilities and gotta be smarter. bleh.
i am dumb so deal with it okay. hmmphf.
oh oh i got like tons of Bs for my last finals. i am so bad that my math teacher isnt convinced that i can do well in pre-calc next year. gahhh. feel like a failure? yes i do. now i feel pretty useless. i cant draw well, i cant do math well, i cant write well. what's left for me to do? like what should i do in the future. i am really lost. i just wish people could just tell straight to my face " your drawing sucks. forget about it" or " oh you are good in this" like duuuude tell the truth. ughh. i seriously dont know what to dooo!!!!!! gahh.

anyway, i appreciate today. :D