i am moody/emotional.
and i dont know why.
i wish i knew why.

i am so indecisive.
i want to stab myself.
i am so indecisive.
i think other people wants to stab me too.

gosh. when am i gonna be decisiveeeeeeeeeeeeee.

All Chains break loose

i might have a new housemate.
the wonder or the horror.
i dont want to suffer like Jaryl.
PLEASE T_T

the horror:
one escape route-
back to melayu land!

Chi-town

it's almost 4AM Malaysian time and my mom's still online  -_____-  watching drama.
such a junkie.

anyways,
my awesome cousin brought me to chicago on sunday. :D
he's going back to chicago in about two weeks.
his girlfriend's coming and he's gonna tour for a month with her!
i drove for the 1st third of the journey.
cant seem to drive straight. -_- it's either to the left or to the right. RAWR.
didnt do much there though.

our first stop was

CHINATOWN :D
felt like home.
...kinda.

tonnes of Wisconsin ginseng there
wanted to take pictures of them
but kiasu asian didnt allow. :(
"no pictures! no pictures!"
couldnt even feel proud for WI.


had dim sum for brunch.
the restaurants known for good dim sum had a long line so we went to another restaurant...

then we headed over to the Willis Tower :)
freaking parking fees in huge cities in US are insane.
$5 per hour. or $14 for 3hrs. we managed to find a $12 for 24 hour.

Lego Willis

cousin said before the Willis Tower had antennas, KLCC was slightly taller than Willis
he said they loved to bitch about how KLCC was only a teeny weeny bit taller in the introductory video.

yes, i came all the way to chicago just to stand on that piece of glass.

yes, he blames me for taking horrible pictures.
look at him with his oh-so-fine cam and lenses
pssht

digged some nose, then left.

so much for excretory waste. haha.
you see the bird shit?

walked around Michigan Ave,
then looked for the "popular" deep dish pizza place..
we walked 11 blocks south, three blocks east, then six blocks back west, and we couldnt find that freaking place. so we walked 11 blocks north again and east, west, here and there.
settled at Giordano's Pizza.
it was so cheesy. i was grossed out by it. lol

super cheesy pasta.

and the super cheesy deep dish pizza.
it was so cheesy, i couldnt find any sausages.
okay im exaggerating but still.

that's all i did in Chicago. lol.
i like that place.
love the buildings.
might go there for college. HMM.
but it's the Windy City T_T
talked to my mom about it and she gave the green light to chicago. but when i asked her about NY she said it wouldnt be suitable for me. rawr.
too much pressure and rush.
hmm...

they say we look alike. do we?


"thank you for bringing me to chicago. i had fun."
"you did?"
*FACEPALM 10000000000000000000000000000x*
*IGNOREEEEE*


oh before i forget, credits to him for most of the photos here. *the nice ones la duhhh*
yeah i stole.
talking about stealing.
he was like "why do you like to keep talking about stealing?"
LOL.
"those who talk about stealing dont steal; those who dont, steals."
muaahhaha now, let's talk about stealing. should we?

of dreams, cold weather in the name of spring break

yes, it's not supposed to make any sense.
anyways,
:D
THE LONG AWAITED SPRING BREAK HAS ARRIVED!

psyched much?!
kinda.
at least i accomplished a little something today. like spring some cleaning at home.
haha.
woahh. it's only ten PM and my eyes are droopy.
hmmm.

got a notice from the management the other day
it basically tells us to keep the entrance doors closed b/c some homeless dude had been sleeping at the lower floor stairwells.

creepola.
imagine when you come home at night and you walk down the stairs and you see this dude laying down there!

PLUS my cousin told me he forgot to lock the house door that night.. and he saw the door was propped open a little. luckily i lock my bedroom door.






creepola #2!
but somehow, it might just be my cousin who did not close the door properly the night before.
when i tell my mom this. she's probably gonna freak. kinda. lol
chi-town this sunday! :) what should i do there? HMM.

i sooo want to go shopping. get a whole new closet. i wanna look/be trendy too! but i know im soo gonna feel super guilty after that. PLUS. i have a tendency of not wearing the clothes i buy. SIGHSOLA.  :(
i made a vow. i can only buy clothes if i lose weight.
but aint losing any. FAIL.
speaking of that...some people just dont get why people care so much about their weight, size and looks.
you live on Earth thus it MATTERS OKAY.
at least it does to me, myself, and i.
if it doesnt for you. then good for you and be happy that you dont care about it :)
dont you dare argue w/ me. PERIOD.  

i want to go to Taiwan.
i dont know when's the next time i could go overseas again.












 and i have college dilemmas and a car dilemma too.
i have a to-do list for spring break!
and a week aint enough for 'em!
oh well. pray/hope things go well. :)
if it doesnt, make 'em right!
<3

im having dreams lately.
i usually dont.
and i know i shouldnt have them
because i WASH MY FEET EVERY NIGHT. okay, sometimes. depends when i shower at night and whether my feet touches the carpet between the time i take my night shower and the time i go to sleep.
and if they do, MUST WASH.
LOL
p.s. i wear room slippers at home.
call me superstitious. but hey, i've been doing this since i was a lil girl.
weird dreams. and some are scary too. : /

on a random note. you know the everything happens because of yourself thing? you BLAME yourself. DONT blame others. cause you see. it's always YOUR fault. so yeap. i want to blame my parents for that superstitious. but after all, it all goes back to ME. :)

so yeah, people BLAME YOURSELF. ;)
though i find comfort in blaming others :D
HEH.
dont we?

Doped

okay, so for the few of you who know phoebe well..
Smells are a huge part of her life.
bad smell = intolerable.
thus she tries to make herself smell pleasant cause she does not want people to feel unpleasant.
anyways,
a freshman in my spanish class asked me to help him in his algebra.
teacher wasnt in school so we were watching Nemo in spanish and we could do anything we wanted.
back to the story...
i said yes.
and T_T
my dear NOSE.
fella smelled like whatithinkitwas weed. but the fella didnt look like he was high or something. eyes were perfectly fine.. so maybe it was some other unbearable stuff he ate/suffocated
i was like all right. it's okay. you can do this. just teach him and you're done.
so he asked me stuff and i tried to explain...
and after we were done..
my NOSE.
infiltrated with the scent of weed.
i kinda got giddy instead of high. -_-
i told myself, nevermind, it would go away
i took out my berry scented lotion and applied it on my hands in the hopes of removing the smell.
BUT
it FAILED to do so.
i still had two more periods before school ended...
bell rang.
i went to my 7th hour.
i can still smell the smell.
:(
applied lotion again.
it's STILL there! T_T
i felt suffocated and ggiddy. PLUS i had a quiz in 7th and a test in 8th!
praying/hoping i could do my test -_-
i can even smell it when im talking about it.
boohoo.
so doped.


had curry twice yesterday. lol
yumms.
so much coconut milk.
then today, i bought coconut!
omg, havent had that for a super long time!
i almost forgot how it tasted like!
cold and refreshing.

MMMMM 

i wish i had more of that. hmm.
one more week till spring break!
cant wait! :D

80 degrees out today! <3

feel like buying clothes
but is it worth it?
so many things to do.
but i just aint doing 'em.

having a crush on some youtube dude. HAHAHA
wish i could be that funny.